Thursday, May 28, 2009

Sultry Seville Nights


I imagine most everyone who has attended an authentic flamenco show has walked away like I did – with my jaw hanging open in amazement.
It is impossible NOT to be considerably stirred and confused by the sounds, movements and emotions one witnesses at a flamenco performance. And it is equally impossible not to want to share what you have seen, heard and felt with others. The question is how to do so.
Even if photography is permitted at a flamenco show, how much of the experience can a photo actually capture? What of flamenco can a series of still images convey?
A still photo fails to communicate the intrinsic elements of flamenco – sound and movement.
But is there any type of recording which can encapsulate those essential elements?
An audio recording could potentially capture the sound of flamenco, but its ability to do so is limited.
Even the highest quality recording would not do the artists justice. The guttural cadences and improvised percussion of flamenco would lose a dimension in translation. Its adamant stomps and lacerating cries would not slice through the air and resonate against the tile walls of the candlelit patio. It would be flat.
Moreover, an audio recording would divulge none of the invigorating visual elements of flamenco: the gleaming wood of the musician’s guitar; the delicate lace on the dancer’s dress; the expressions of agony, passion and rage on the artists’ faces; the dancer’s erotic hand flourishes, high-speed twirls and fervent thrashes … and the hummingbird blur of her hammering feet.
So … that leaves the option of a video recording -- a tried and true tool often used to convey and arouse emotion. But I would argue that even the most artistically rendered flamenco film would be bland compared to the real thing.
While film can communicate some sensory details, when it comes to recreating an entirely sensual experience, film falls short.
A video screen does not capture the play of light across a room -- the way it envelops certain faces in a warm glow, and brushes briefly against others before leaving them to the shadows.
When you watch flamenco on a movie screen, you will not you breathe the cool night air laced with honeysuckle, your eyes will not detect the sparkle of perspiration on the dancer’s face, nor will you feel the temperature rise as her body movements and footwork accelerate.
For me, the question of how to document the performance was rendered irrelevant because recording devices were not permitted. Instead, I jotted down notes throughout the performance in an attempt to capture the scene in words.
But it is not easy to find words which accurately describe the visual, auditory and emotional stimuli one encounters with flamenco.
Unpredictable. Desperate. Angry. Insistent. Fluid. Graceful. Soulful. Sultry.
The juxtaposition of these terms is a decent start …but does not even begin to paint the full picture.
In fact, I am not sure an encounter with flamenco can be recreated through any combination of words, images and sounds. I see it as one of those rare and beautiful creations rendered comprehensible only through personal experience.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Adventures in Veganland

Discovery

I am not a vegan. Nor do I want to be. But I have recently developed a taste for vegan baked goods.

A few weeks ago, I was hit by a mid-afternoon sugar low and stopped at Crossroads Coffee Shop in search of a sweet but substantive snack.

Peering in to the glass display case, I saw mouth-watering slices of carrot cake, coconut cake and pecan pie. They looked decadent ... but a tad too sugary to have substance.

Next, I saw rows of plump sesame bagels and fluffy blueberry muffins. Nah... too bready.

Finally, my eyes rested on a perfectly scrumptious looking cookie packed with whole grain oats and plump, pink craisins. It was browned to perfection ... juuuuuust riiiiight.

The cellophane-wrapped treat looked a little large for an afternoon snack (about the size of a miniature frisbee), so I figured I would eat half and save the rest for later.

I must admit that I was a bit skeptical when the gal behind the Crossroads counter informed me that what I had assumed to be a cookie was in fact a vegan oatie.

"Hmmm," I thought. "Could be disappointing."

But, faced with a lack of appealing alternatives, I decided the mighty vegan oatie deserved at least a fair trial.

Luckily, as soon as I took my first bite of vegan delight, I realized I was not in danger of buyer's remorse. It hit the spot.

A little bit chewy, with just a hint of crunch. Moist, tasty and satisfying. Sweet enough, but not too sweet. Honey-kissed.

I broke off another piece of oatie. It went down just as smoothly as the first. Delicious.

After a few more nibbles, I tucked the remainder away for later.

Well .... later came sooner than I expected. And, before I knew it, I had polished off the entire frisbee-sized vegan cookie.

I felt like I had eaten a small but energy-packed meal. The scrumptious snack kept me going through my 7 p.m. class and until I made it home for a light dinner at 10 p.m.



Revelation

The next week, I was having lunch with a friend whose office happens to be just around the corner from Crossroads Coffee in the Fan.

"This may sound weird," she ventured, "but Crossroads makes these really good vegan cookies ... and I am totally addicted to them."

"I know those cookies!" I cried.

And we proceeded to gush about them for the rest of our lunch date.

Since then, I have been back to Crossroads a couple of times in search of their delectable vegan treats.

I was even beginning to think I might just prefer vegan baked goods to the ones made for carnivores.

And then last weekend, the same friend who had admitted her addiction to the Crossroads oaties told me she had discovered the secret to vegan cooking.

"Margarine," she proclaimed. "They use it in everything."

I felt like I had been punched in the gut.

"Margarine??" I gasped.

You see, telling a natural foods nazi like me that her new favorite treat is made with chemical-laden margarine is like telling a compulsive dieter that the nonfat, sugar-free latte she just drank was actually made with whole milk and sugar.

I felt blindsided ... bilked ... betrayed.

"I thought vegans were supposed to be health consicous," I said in disgust. "Doesn't that usually mean avoiding synthetic foods?"

"What a sham," I thought. "Typical."

Reconciliation

So, today I took a break from Crossroads and instead headed to Ellwood's Coffee for my afternoon pick-me-up.

Browsing their selection of sweets, I spotted a chocolate covered dessert bar sprinkled with nuts. My stomach gurgled in anticipation.

"What is that one?" I asked the gal behind the counter.

"It's a vegan toffee bar," she chirped.

Of course it was. What else would it be?

I contemplated asking if it was made with margarine, but decided against it. I chose not to to think about the hypocrisy and let myself cave to vegan temptation.

Postscript

As it turns out, there are actually several "all natural" vegan margarine options on the market.

Some appear to be made with soy ... while others are made with olive and/or nut oils. Check out the Earth Balance product line.

There are also plenty of recipes for vegan baked goods that use fruit purees or vegetable oil in place of butter or margarine. See Vegweb.com for some yummy-looking recipe ideas.

Friday, April 17, 2009

The Search

I don't mean to be critical, but I am so sick of this type of commentary:
http://social.richmond.com/blog/carolinesplate/2009/04/the-lost-first-date/

Yes, dating in 2009 is different than dating in 1950. Yes, it sucks.

Now move on.

I find this obsession with "the search for the perfect mate" extremely tiresome. There is no perfect mate.

If you're lucky, you will find a kind, supportive, loving mate ... but there is no point in hoping for perfection. And there is no point in wasting energy analyzing why near-perfection is so hard to find.

Why not use that energy to pursue something within reach? Why not search for yourself ... connect with yourself ... improve yourself.

Each one of us is ultimately responsible for our own happiness. No one--not even the "perfect" mate-- can guarantee another person's sense of well being. That sense is one that comes from within.

So ... to all you self-professed dating gurus, I say relax. Take a break from dating as a competitive sport, and cultivate a relationship with someone who can make you happy--yourself.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Either or?


In a job interview a few weeks ago, I was posed with a question that has stayed with me ever since:

"Do you find comfort in being close to home ...or are you eager to get out and explore the world?"

Since it was an interview, I felt I had to answer one way or another. So I chose the latter.

But I'm not sure how I can claim to be an eager explorer when I have just moved "home" to Richmond, where I am surrounded by friends and family.

True...I did spend four years away at college and three years living in DC, but throughout that time -- except for the semester I spent in Paris -- I was never more than five hours away from the comforts of home.

Yet there is no question in my mind that the most rewarding and enriching moments of my adult life have come from my ventures into the wider world. As I have explored new places and cultures, I have made friends and memories that now define me.

It seems each time I venture out of my comfort zone, I encounter someone or something that illuminates a new layer within the prism of my soul. Afterward, everything I experience filters through that new layer and refracts into thoughts and perspectives I would not otherwise have had.

I am not sure who I would be today if I had never gotten out and explored the world. But I also don't know who I would be today if I did not have a home base to return to after each adventure.
My loyalty to home and family defines me just as much as my fascination with the world beyond.

In the interview, I had to choose one or the other...but in real life I refuse to do so.

And if that means my life becomes a quest to balance these two essential drives, then so be it.

Because I simply can't relinquish either side of myself.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

How far have we come?


I watched an excellent but emotionally disturbing film last night.

It was "Changeling"-- yet another of Clint Eastwood's thought -provoking directorial masterpieces.

Conspiracy, corruption and discrimination are some of the sociopolitical issues raised in the film, which is based on a series of events that took place in Los Angeles in the late 1920s .

"Changeling" exposes some alarming real-life examples of conspiring officials and corrupt police departments. But, to me, the most disturbing illustration was that of the L.A. County Hospital Psychiatric Ward.

It wasn't that I was distressed by the images of life inside an insane asylum. (I have seen "Girl Interrupted" and "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest," after all.)

No...what I found most upsetting was the patients' sense of helplessness--and the doctors' refusal to listen to them.

The doctors and nurses assumed everything the women said or did to be evidence of their "insanity." The harder a patient tried to act normal, the crazier she seemed.

I was nauseated at the idea that, as soon as a woman is diagnosed as mentally ill, she essentially loses the ability to defend herself.

Fortunately, I know that over the past 80 years society has made significant progress in its approach to mental illness.

Today, doctors are better equipped to diagnose and treat anxiety, depression and mood disorders with counseling and medication; insurance companies are finally required to treat mental ailments the same way they treat physical ailments; and it seems the stigma attached to mental illness is gradually beginning to fade.

Taking all of this into consideration as I re-hashed the psych ward scenes in "Changeling," I convinced myself that patients in modern psychiatric wards are treated more humanely than those portrayed in the movie.
But this morning, NPR informed me that caretakers at a home for mentally retarded citizens were recently arrested for organizing after-hours "fight clubs" pitting disabled residents against each other.

So now I wonder...

If a group of caretakers can so easily abuse the mentally disabled, why should I think they couldn't do the same to the mentally ill?


Monday, March 16, 2009

Float On


Float On
A few weeks ago, I opened a copy of Richmond's Skirt magazine and promptly devoured three personal essays I found inside: Stacy Appel's "Undercurrents," Christine Mason Miller's "Time Out" and Phyllis Theroux's "Dream Time."

The theme and messages of this month's issue could not have come at a better time for me.

As I transition out of a job I held for three years and attempt to find my way along a new path of my own making, I have found myself feeling overwhelmed and anxious at the thought that I am in control of my own future.

What if I make the wrong decision and miss out on a golden opportunity? What if I take a step in one direction and then, a few years later, wish I had gone a different route?

The words of wisdom in these essays eased my anxieties and reassured me that I am in the right place for me right now.

I am nourished by the idea that sometimes the wisest choice we can make is to relinquish control and let the invisible currents of life "carry us forward with intelligence we can't quite perceive."
Open your mind and add spice to your life

I was midway through a semester abroad program, studying French and living with a family in Paris when the United States declared war on Iraq.

“C’est la guerre,” my host father matter-of-factly proclaimed as we sat down to dinner one March evening.

Once it became clear that France would not back the U.S. in its pursuit of war with Iraq, I received phone calls and emails from friends in the states :

“Is it weird to be in France right now? Are the people rude or hostile to you? Do the French hate Americans now? Do you feel unsafe?”

Not at all.

As opposed to Americans, who had boycotted the sale of French wine and taken to calling French fries “freedom fries,” my French colleagues were able to make a clear distinction.

"We are against the war, but we are not against Americans," they said.

Despite my inherent association with President Bush and the war, I never encountered the least bit of enmity or aggression from the French community.

I hope that a French student studying in the states at that time would be able to say the same.

Living abroad, especially during such a controversial moment in history, opened my mind to the importance of cross-cultural awareness and drew my attention to the media’s considerable influence over public perception.

This awareness has encouraged me to seek out friends with backgrounds different from my own and to consider the variety of perspectives surrounding each political, social or cultural issue.

They say variety is the spice of life. If so, I believe we owe it to society and to ourselves to keep our spice racks fully stocked.